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chiomaluvs123 — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 06:03:19 +0000

I could write for days, talk for hours
But this is something I have no response to
No words to
Even in the mist of this sentence I’m too weak
Too tired to speak on this
Just plain speechless
They say love has no limits
But time does and so do the words in my mind
Because I have no words for love
Merely in the midst of nothingness
There are no words for love
I hope tomorrow I can speak on it
For it truly is a beautiful thing
And it’s not just simply based on feelings
But since I have none
I also have no words
Maybe tomorrow I will be able to speak
But until then I will remain quiet

Stuff

chiomaluvs123 — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 05:41:38 +0000

This is not me. This is not me
There’s that glitter of hope I keep waiting for
That light in the midst of faint darkness
That peace, that tranquility you just feel so deep in your soul
That people can see it through you
This is not me, this is not me
It can’t be
I believe there is more to this than I thought
The blessings are store up high in thought
The surroundings are not
This is what we seek right?
Change
To be it and see it
Because it begins with us
Accompanied with the sign of hope
Of diminished fear
This is not me, this is not me
This is someone else
Living somewhere else
I’m now feeling it inside my soul
Burning with a deep fiery hole
Or maybe I’m confusing it for passion growing in size
Multiplying with out skirts of expectations

Everyday Life

chiomaluvs123 — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 04:25:47 +0000

So today was a very boring day for me, I spent the day by myself, did a few errands here and there, but overall it was very slow. And by 2pm i was just chilling at home without a care in the world. And I’m not sure what it is, but within these past few days, I haven’t really been on that super, really high on life feeling, that I normally have. Like that fire for life, that’s always flaming in my heart. For example, tomorrow, is just a day to me, not a blessing, or something to look forward to or be excited about. Or to see as an opportunity to do God’s will. And I’m not sure if these feelings are a result of the gloomy weather or other measures outside of my control, but I know I don’t want to use it as an excuse to complain, walk in satisfactory content or struggle to remain positive. And i don’t want to have to be inspired again just to be excited about life and cherish it everyday, I feel like it should be something automatic. Everyday I want to wake up, put on the WHOLE armour of GOD, walk with a positive mind and heart, stand by faith and know that with whatever comes my way, God strengthens me and He is overall. But I think that even being as long as Christian as I have, its still an everyday task. It’s not something that comes easily. Especially with the weighs of this world and the negative pressures we face, it’s not easy always remaining positive 100% of time, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. So what I’m learning is really to just take it one day at a time. Planning ahead is always good, but I think, at least for me, just focusing on one day at a time puts my mind at easy and makes the day obtainable and succesful. Because when I put my mind on several things, I feel overwhelmed and that I can’t do it. And even just talking negatively about situations, KEEPS you negative, so I have remain positive always as much as I can. I pray that God uses this small amount, a mustard seed and multiplies it into a garden. I stand by faith

This is just life

chiomaluvs123 — Mon, 11 May 2009 05:49:37 +0000

Hi everyone, so I decided to try something, I haven’t done in awhile and start blogging again. To those from fcbk, thank you for accepting the invitation and reading this.

So currently I’m in the middle of learning lots of life lessons. Some I’ve already learned, are being repeated to me over and over again for whatever reason, and others I’m still yet to grasp. I think a big lesson I’m learning right now is the issue of trust. Not just trusting other people, but also yourself, your instincts, God, etc. And there are some aspects in my life, where I feel my ability to trust certain people has wavered and failed me. And normally I can sense dishonesty or lack of loyalty, especially when someone else warns me of this. But sometimes I catch myself off guard for even long periods of time, which I do not quite know where I was at the time, but not all of my mind must of been quite there. Fortunately I’m reminded that we are not perfect people and these opportunities of “failure” are also perfect opportunities for us to grow and learn. In fact, I’m beginning to learn that I LOVE the disappointments, persecutions, heartaches, adversities, and trials in life. For they build my character, faith and trust in God and myself. Although they may cause me some stress during those times, I know I will see the light at the end of the tunnel.

And have you noticed that life is not really about coincidences, but just about details? Like for example, a lot of things in your life can occur, where you may describe them to be “coincidences”, but really it’s God reiterating the details. And if you take them, you can use them in other aspects of your life, that you probably would not have realized, had you not paid attention. And I’ve been taking words hit after hit lately, I listen to them, try to interpret them wisely and I hold onto them. Maybe to the point where I’m not sure when to let go.

Another thing is that it amazes me, when people can actually hurt me. Maybe not intentionally, but still badly. And then, then the issue of forgiveness, trust, and friendship comes into play. And everything just seems a mess. But I’m learning that those are usually the times, where I have to wait on God and be patient. Because trust me, I am a very anxious person, although I may not always show it to those who already know me, but I am. I’m working on it though, just taking it day by day. But anyways, thanks for reading! Peace!
P. S. Yes, I do write and talk a lot about God, please don’t be surprised for those who already do know me. Because He is truly the center of my life. My life has truly been VERY enriching the day I met Him. I pray you can say the same:)

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chiomaluvs123 — Mon, 11 May 2009 05:06:09 +0000

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